Back to School

yesterday was the first day back!

&it was alright

it actually kinda felt good to be back at school, 

idk we will see how this last half of the semester goes, 

i cant believe i am going to be a junior next year :0

WOW. 

time goes by waayy too hella fast. 

which is bringing me to a whole other topic, 

but that topic needs to be brought up in it's own entry! haha

anyways, 

today which is the 2nd day back at school, 

i actually started passing out invitations to my sweet 16 birthday party, 

which is like insanely nerve wrecking, and totally weird. haha

truthfully.. 

i dont like it!!

i feel awkward and i don't know what to say, 

it's just all around weird haha

well anyways

i am passing out more tomorrow, 

because i didn't finish today, 

so that should be fun?

i guess? haha

ahhhhhh!!!!! :/

post up later. 

byee(:

GNO

(girls night out)

except tonight we are having a GNI (girls night in)

sleepover, and fun things like that! i cant wait.. 

i haven't seen my girls all 4 weeks of spring break, besides alexis at dance.. 

but that doesn't really count. 

so i am excited, 

we have catching up to do.. 

and a lot of fun memories to make tonight!! <3

it will be good to relax, a nice change from all this homework and boredem. 

well i cant wait, 

pictures will be posted in my next blog, yay (:

<3

i just want there to be someone there. 

someone who cares

someone who knows

i just want there to be that one person

who can make me feel like none other

just one 

to be there

to care

to know

one.

the Dark

sometimes I am so afraid

to be alone in the dark

the things i might see 

the things that might be there

that i can not see

the feelings i get

there is a pit in my stomach

it wont go away no matter how much i want it to

hiding away in the dark places of my mind 

are the thoughts that come out in the night

scary things, happy things

things i fear of happening

things i wish with all my heart would come true

i lay my head down

now to sleep 

into the dark i stare

as i close my eyes

my thoughts clutter my mind 

too many things rushing threw

i cant always see the light 

and am afraid of what i might find if i let my mind wander

so i will get up 

and turn on the lights

so i don't have to face

what is hiding in the night

adventures in LA

was pretty cool. 

quality time with my dad and my brother.. 

now i really cant wait to get back to school! haha

but uhm, I went to Santa Monica, Toluca Lake, Studio City, Hollywood and uhh.. 

we stayed in Long Beach, it was pretty cool. 

I went to the fashion district for the first time.. that was awesome. 

but my brother hated it so we didnt stay for very long. 

he was like afraid or something?! haha

he thought we were going to get jumped, or shot or something

but it was really awesome.. 

so now everytime I go up to LA i am going to want to go by there. 

it was weird eating out everyday!?

haha

I am happy to be home and just eat cereal for breakfast. haha(:

it was a good thing though, 

i was getting kinda bored of my life so it was nice to shake it up a bit

now i am ready to get down to business and do what i need to do!

i guess its all good.