so far this summer has been:

insanely boring. nothing real exciting has happened at all. the only place i went was LA, to see so you think you can dance, I will admit that, that was amazing, but that was the only exciting thing! so anyways, I really want to go to the fair, and sea world, and LA again, and i want to go to the beach really really bad, and hmm, what else? I don’t even know, I just want to be doing things that a 16 year old girl should be doing over summer, and I know that sitting around the house is not what should be happening! :/

AHHHH. i need my license. 

oh my goodness,

first off. im happy i can talk to you. it’s good. but if you only knew, boy oh boy if you only knew, except sometimes i wonder if it would even matter if you knew!?

would it make a difference with anything, there is a 50/50 chance you would care and the same chance you wouldn’t. sometimes i just don’t know what to do. 

but i find it funny, my best posts on here all seem to be about you.

<3

Michael Jackson...

I will miss you, 

and so will the whole world. 

You were an amazing performer and have inspired so many people, 

including me. 

Your music will live on forever and you will be remembered as long as music is made. 

Rest in Peace, Goodbye for now.

there was a fly..

In my Chicken Caesar Salad at California Pizza Kitchen!! Is that not like the grossest thing you have ever heard ever!! Eww. i am so happy i look at my food before i eat it or else that fly would have been in my body!! :/ YUCK.

It's starting to be a crazy summer already.

Well, I am going to try my best to make this long story short, so here it goes.

Yesterday, my friends Aunt was hosting a jewelry party and so my friend invited me and about 7-8 of our other friends. We were all hanging out and having a lot of fun, it was about 9:30 and people were starting to leave. We decided to have a sleepover and it was 6 girls in total. We had to stay really quiet until Alexis' parents fell asleep. So we were quiet and whispering, but I mean, truthfully, it is really hard to stay totally quiet when there are 6 16 year old girls who just want to have some fun on their summer vacation. I mean you understand my logic right? Anyways, some of the girls were being a tad bit hyper and made a little bit of noise. It turns out her Mom comes downstairs and tells us that she is going to take us all home, and at this point it was 1:00am. We all got our things ready and we began to head out. It was horrible, I felt so bad for Alexis, we were all really looking forward to having a fun sleepover and it pretty much got really messed up. Well, my friend Vivi lives like about 15-20 mins away from Alexis' house and then my other friend Marissa did not want to show up back at her house at 1:00 in the morning after begging her mom to let her sleepover, so I told them they could come to my house. 

I didn't actually call my parents to ask if it was okay because I figured that they were sleeping! It turns out we get dropped off at my house and we had to go in through the garage and everyone was awake, and by the way totally freaked out that someone was opening the garage door at 1:00 in the morning. It was great. 

But yeah, so we ended up pulling an all nighter and having a ton of fun, so maybe it just didn't work out for a reason!? But we plan on trying to make it happen again. 

So this is the first adventure of hopefully many this summer, I can't wait!!(:

<3

Summer '09

living in the moment, spending it with the ones you love.

doing things you never have, letting loose, letting go.

meeting new people, taking pictures, the beach, the pool, my house or yours.

love, friendship, and hopefully no drama.

this is what summer is all about, get it together and enjoy it.

i hope all your summer wishes come true<3

Goodbye Sophomore Year

Well, today was the last day of Sophomore Year, which just seems so darn hard to believe! It’s funny though, because on one hand, I feel like it went by slow, such as; I can’t totally remember the first couple of months of the school year, like I don’t feel like they just happened yesterday, it actually does feel like it was a while ago. But then on the other hand, it sorta feels like I didn’t do too much this year, almost like I didn’t really accomplish anything, so it doesn’t feel like the year should be over already. If that makes any sense at all. I understand if you don’t take time to figure that one out. 

Anyways, this year was good. I kept up decent grades. Decent meaning, Im sure I could have done better, and I am going to keep up with that commitment this next year, because truthfully, what I do now is going to set me up for the rest of my life.. no joke. & I really would like for the rest of my life to be rather enjoyable if that is at all possible. So I am going to try my hardest to do whatever I can to do exceptionally well in all my classes next year, and not just decent! 

But anyways, I still can’t believe this year is over. It just doesn’t feel right for some reason. Eww, I was single this whole year? ouch. that kinda sucks… haha. Oh well, hmm. Well my friends and I definitely went through our own ups and downs this year, but we came out of all of it stronger, and now I am for sure looking forward to summer. And don’t get me wrong saying how my friends and I have come out of everything stronger, because I mean we have, but we continue to have ups and downs just like anyone… that will never change. And truthfully, I still sorta want new people! I wish I could move and just bring a select few people with me that I can’t live without, and then get all new people in place of the others. Wouldn’t that just be so amazing!? I think so.

So, next year I will be a Junior, which is almost a Senior, which I hate thinking about, because that just means so old!! I don’t even have full comprehension of that I don’t think. It all just sort of scares me to some degree. But I guess when the time comes there is nothing you can do about it, you can’t pause life the way you pause TV, that is not a luxury we get. So you have to fast forward through your whole life, no pauses, no rewinds, you just keep going until your movie is over.. 

WOW. well I am going to go watch a movie or something!? That whole paragraph just got too deep for me, and my eye is starting to twitch from being on the computer for too long!!!!! ughh. :/